Stubborn

 Today was the third day that my husband felt dizzy in the morning. He was so dizzy that he slid down the wall, started sweating and felt like he was going to throw up. I do not know what is going on. He has never had any previous health problems, but because of this, he has allowed his lifestyle to decline over the last several years. So, when I hear that he is experiencing dizziness, it is STRESSING ME OUT! Could be anything from nothing to something major. I tell him this and it goes on deaf ears; I am overreacting. Can I be overreacting and there be nothing? Possibly. Would I rather him take it seriously and assume that it is something serious until proven otherwise? Absolutely. Why is he so damn stubborn! 

I know I am grouping/stereotyping a gender, but I feel that this is the way most men are about their health. They take it seriously only when they are in pain or they are already on the ground, half-dead from a heart attack. Is it an "inconvenience" to see the doctor? Of course. Time and money may be wasted. Or, it can save your life and prevent a potential catastrophic bodily event. 

I am stressed out because he is NEVER the sick one. I am always sick. I have multiple chronic conditions that some are well managed, others are not. He is always my rock. I need my rock to be the rock. Not stubborn like a boulder. I need him to listen and take it seriously. I feel like it is that saying, "you can lead a horse to water but you can't make them drink". I just need to be okay that he is okay with the repercussions of his actions, whatever the outcome, and I am not :(.