Much to Say About Nothing (365 day journal goal)

 I completely forgot to write today! It is really hard to make something into a habit and I don't want to goof up so early in the game (day 5). I have a lot to say, but I am so tired right now my brain is not working. But I put something. I have acknowledged the commitment and consistency.  Now I must sleep. :)

 My husband went to the doctor today and found out he has a double ear infection. This has been causing vertigo! The dizziness is solved. This is the very first thing that I thought the first day, but doubted myself because of the fact it would come and go and I could not recreate the feeling when doing the Epley maneuver. Either way, I am so relieved it is nothing serious! On another note, I feel like I am doing really well staying on top of the house and things I need to do throughout the day. I feel very focused lately. I am tired, but chronic fatigue is my boss, so it isn't anything new. I truly feel incredibly blessed and at peace at where I am at in life right now. 

  I don't like making "resolutions". I feel like they are easy to break and it seems cliche to make a bunch of resolutions, just to end up forgetting about them 6 weeks later. Goals usually begin at any time. Goals are statements of what you want to achieve, the steps you take to achieve them and a time frame in which you are willing to achieve them by. These are things that I have been thinking about for many months (even years for some); scheming how I can make it work in my life to better my life. And because they are goals, me acknowledging them at any time, including January 3, seems fitting.  Let's get to it: 1. Journal (via Blogger) every day for a year. Using my calendar and making a plan of the time of day that I write will help to make this goal successful. 2. Become healthier. Now this is very subjective. Healthy to me even today, may look very different than it did 5-10 years ago. To be more specific. I want to feel strength, decrease fatigue and feel like...

 Today was the third day that my husband felt dizzy in the morning. He was so dizzy that he slid down the wall, started sweating and felt like he was going to throw up. I do not know what is going on. He has never had any previous health problems, but because of this, he has allowed his lifestyle to decline over the last several years. So, when I hear that he is experiencing dizziness, it is STRESSING ME OUT! Could be anything from nothing to something major. I tell him this and it goes on deaf ears; I am overreacting. Can I be overreacting and there be nothing? Possibly. Would I rather him take it seriously and assume that it is something serious until proven otherwise? Absolutely. Why is he so damn stubborn!  I know I am grouping/stereotyping a gender, but I feel that this is the way most men are about their health. They take it seriously only when they are in pain or they are already on the ground, half-dead from a heart attack. Is it an "inconvenience" to see the doctor? ...

 I can do this. I can do this. I just keep on telling myself that. It is just journaling. Expressing myself through written word. I have put a goal (one of many for the New Year) to attempt to journal every day for 365 days. I saw this woman on YouTube talk about the benefits of this habit and thought, "shit, if she can do it, so can I". She had stacks of journals from literally YEARS of journaling every day.  The problem is, I have started before. I cannot seem to get into the groove of change. I will not let my past experience defeat me now. One thing that I have learned, is when you want to do something really really badly, but still don't have the motivation to do it (or the million excuses get in the way), we have force ourselves to do it anyway. We set up a routine and make into a discipline. Motivation is a feeling that is fleeting. Discipline and consistency is what makes change happen. This should be the mantra of every person signing up for a gym this year. Make...